You know, today I really reflected and….I’m proud of myself. I really am….because I really am an individual. I’ve lost a lot of things in this temporary place of existence, but I’ve gained so much Spiritually.
And, it’s great…cause, I’m not easily manipulated anymore, by anyone. Cause people don’t realize that people who have lost a lot in this life, are some of the most powerful people you’ll ever meet. I don’t have a girlfriend, I don’t have a child, I don’t have a wife, I don’t have a religion, I don’t really have a family anymore (except my Mother) and you know what? I’m happy. I have nothing tying me down.
We live in a system that appeals to ego, and not in the healthy way. Acceptance becomes synonymous with security. I just find it funny, society is so focused on the dollar bill now more than ever, but when it comes to a person, we may as well be no better than an object on a shelf. Basically, people have forgotten how to treat other people.
I’m glad I am who I am. I was told by my Mother, who never bullsh*t’s anyone, she said “Why do you mostly stay at home?” And I said “Because Mom, in all honesty, people don’t value honesty anymore.” And my Mom said “What does being honest have to do with going out and socializing?” And I just said “Mom…people do not like me. People literally have a hard time accepting me for who I am. I don’t know why, and in all honesty, I don’t care anymore. Because, when I meet a person for the first time, I don’t put on a performance. You either accept me, or you move on. And I’ve found that most people just move on.” And my Mom said “Well yeah, but doesn’t that bother you?” And I said “No…it doesn’t bother me. See, the problem Mother is that, I’m a mirror for people, and unfortunately I mirror most of the bad traits that people have. I come off really strong and it scares people. But in this life, I don’t believe in putting on a performance for anyone. Most people, when they meet someone for the first time, they act a little fake. And, I’m sorry, but my time here on this planet is precious. I don’t like it when my time is being wasted, and because I don’t believe in my time being wasted, I don’t believe in wasting other people’s time. Look, this is who I am, and if you can’t take the heat (and most people can’t) then bye Felicia. Because Mom, like it or not, when you put on a performance to become someone’s friend, chances are 99 times out of 100, there’s always going to be a part of your friendship that’s fake. Yes, I don’t perform, and yes people want nothing to do with me, but at the end of the day, my relationships with the few who can take the heat are as real as can get. You know, it’s funny because my friends will complain about their friends getting under their skin, or how their friends can be so annoying. And the few friends that I’ve got, I usually listen to them, and it’s sad that they can’t get along with the friends that they’ve got. But, currently I have 2 really good friends, and I can honestly say, I never have any problems with any of them. I don’t have to worry about being backstabbed, nothing they do or say annoys me, they’re genuine, and I know if I ever needed their help, they’d be there for me, and I them.” And my Mom just said “Well good…I’m glad that works for you.”
There are some people on here who, after talking to me and getting to know me, cannot take the heat. And, I get it, I come across as someone who is intense and who is very confident in what it is I believe and what it is I say. Just like I truly believe that you’ve had supernatural experiences that has led you back to the Church, I have had very interesting experiences that proves that what I believe isn’t something I just made up. I came to this forum, because in truth, this is the one religion that is as close to the truth as it gets. It’s not 100% true, but it’s close. I’m well aware that this is a “Catholic forum” and that this is what you all believe, and that is perfectly ok, but if you don’t want someone like me here, that’s fine, but if that’s the case then don’t open this forum up to just anyone. Because that implies to me that you’re willing to hear a different perspective, even if it’s not one that you believe.
And, one last thing. If someone makes a blanket statement about non-believers (or people who just do not believe in Catholicism fully), and it’s just not true, do not expect me to allow whatever statement you type on here to be left alone. And, I realize that there are certain things that are taught in the Catholic religion that really is just not true, and that’s not your all’s fault, and I get that…because you have to remember, I was once in your shoes, so I know that there are certain judgements that Catholics make that are honestly true at all. However, I’m not just going sit on the sidelines and not do anything about it. Sorry, but if you say something that just isn’t true, I will let you know about it. There’s one person in my family that believes in the same thing I do, and she is my Aunt. And I cannot tell you how many times, someone in the Catholic Faith has accused my Aunt of making pacts with demons, or being somehow aligned to Satan. She is able to heal people with her hands, I’ve watched her do it, she does not invoke demons, she does not call on Satan, all she does is target the area in the body that hurts and she makes certain motions with her hands. She has healed so many people, I can’t even count, and people keep coming back to her because she truly is able to make a person feel better.
Charlie Kirk died because of what he believed in. ICE, who literally is here to do a job, there are ICE officers being killed (or have had threats on their very lives) for doing their job. There is rhetoric that is floating around that is costing people their lives. In my day to day life, I never talk badly about Catholics, cause again, I do recognize that there is a place for religion on this Earth. Yes, on here I will challenge the faith, but from just normal interactions with other people near me, I never bring up the faith. But, because of the way things are nowadays, I’m not letting certain things go anymore. I’m really not that bad of a person…if you actually get to know me, I’m actually a pretty decent person, but I’m not going to sit back and let just anything slide. The world is a dangerous place right now, for both believers and non-believers alike. So, let’s be a little mindful of what it is we say.
Thank you for your time.