Maria Valtorta has not given me any reason to not trust her, but I’d like to reiterate that I don’t get my information from mankind. There are certain teachings that I will take from The Bible, but The Bible as a whole is full of half-truths. You can still extract truth from The Bible, but at the end of the day, mankind has written The Bible for mankind. They say God inspired people to write The Bible, but 40 different authors? You mean to tell me I have to put my trust in 40 different people who don’t know me from Adam, and don’t know anything about my life? No…sorry, not happening. I have a really hard time believing that God inspired 40 different people to write His word, cause each of those authors are going to write things from their perspective, according to their worldviews, philosophies, etc… It’s no different than saying “Everyone in the United States Government can be trusted because they were inspired by God to serve as a Congressman or Representative.” You and I both know that if there’s anyone that can’t truly be trusted, it’s those people at the White House. I trust maybe a small handful of them, but I wouldn’t trust most of those people even if my life depended on it.
What I’m trying to say is, she may have not given me a reason not to trust her, but she’s not really saying anything I don’t already know about Catholicism, which I don’t believe anymore. You say so many questions of mine would be answered, but I’ve delved into Marian Apparitions and Jesus Apparitions before, and while they may have answered some questions, I have no way of telling if those answers are true or not. There was one person I’ve listened to, whom I believe to have a lot of truth, but that’s because, I’ve taken her advice before and have seen it work wonders into my own life. I consider myself a Spiritual Scientist, if I can replicate something that someone else did and get the same result or very close to the same result, I am able to trust them, and that’s because I can replicate their own experiment. And for someone whose like me, who is very skeptical and aims to find the authentic truth in everything, whom just like everyone else has the ability to test Spiritual Concepts and can replicate not just someone’s experiment but get the same results as that person, then anyone can replicate what it is I do and get the same result as well. The evidence speaks for itself. But I’ve got to have something to work with, I’m not someone who can do the whole blind faith thing. Sorry, but I need evidence that something is real, and so far Catholicism has yet to give me an answer on certain things (or at least give me some way of being able to test Catholic concepts, which unfortunately I have no way of testing).
I’ve found the truth through my own efforts with the help of God, Jesus, and my spirit. I just want to know the truth, and with Catholicism there’s just too many holes in it for me to be satisfied that Catholicism is the truth. There’s too many unknowns to it, and the fact that we’re just supposed to have faith that God has our best interests at heart, doesn’t do anything for me. Again, it’s blind faith. And while that might work for some people, I am not one to operate on blind faith. I need an explanation, and not “Well I don’t know, but…” No buts…if you don’t know, just say you don’t know. Stop trying to reframe something and just be real with me.
Really…what needs to be done is,I would like to see for myself the books of The Bible that were taken out or never put in period. I’m missing some information and there are some major holes in the argument for Catholicism. All I’m asking is for all the books of The Bible including the books that were taken out or discarded. But because the Pope and another person of high authority in the Church will deny me information that could be quite valuable and maybe even life-changing, I’m afraid I cannot and will not ever be able to believe that Catholicism is real. Yes, I know I said that I won’t base my beliefs on what is says in The Bible, but if I have access to all of that literature, maybe my tune will change. But till that happens, the only conclusion I can give about Catholicism is inconclusive. I need more information, not information that is being hidden from me. That is a form of dishonesty, and I don’t do dishonest.
Well if you truly believe that then, yeah, it’ll never happen for you or anyone with that attitude. This is an example of a limiting belief, and because you hold that belief, any evidence that that belief is true will be shown to you. Instead you should approach it as “Is it true that not all of us will experience visions or take dictation from God? What can I learn from this?” You’re already assuming that there’s a possibility that not everyone will experience visions or take dictation, so you’re already tossing that possibility out the window when we live in a Universe full of possibilities. “With God, all things are possible.” I personally believe everyone can get visions or take dictation from God, but whether or not anyone believes they can is a whole other animal. If Jesus can raise someone from the dead, how is this not possible? When you judge something, you’ve made up your mind about something. And because you have made up your mind, any deeper truths will not show up in your reality all because you have decided to close your mind to any other possibilities and see only one possibility as true. An open mind is hungry for information. A closed mind will only learn so much. If you believe that with God anything is possible, how is this not possible then?
Well maybe you’re ok with the unknown, but for me, I need to know if something is truly unknown. The fact that the Catholic Hierarchy is withholding, or omitting anything from us is very dishonest! They could be hiding something that could be really valuable for the hueman race. They could be hiding the answer to why evil exists in our world. But the fact of the matter is, no one will ever know, because only with permission from the Pope and someone of religious authority can one go to the Vatican Secret Archives. This is why I will not consider a question, such as “Why do we have evil in the world?” or “Why do people suffer?” as something we don’t have an answer to, cause we could very well have the answer in those Archives. But no, we’re gonna leave the public in the dark (which is a Satanic action by the way) and we’re not going to show them anything that could answer that question. It would be different if they weren’t hiding anything from us. That way I could definitively say “You know what? We truly don’t know what the answer is.” But as long as they keep hiding things from us, I’m going to continue to search for the truth, because I think it is very unjust and very dishonest to be keeping anything from the public PERIOD! It’d be different if The Vatican Secret Archives had sensitive information in there like someone’s credit card number or social security number, but I highly doubt it’s down there, but I don’t know nor will I ever know. Till I am able to see every single book in the Bible including the ones that never made it in or were taken out of The Bible, then all I can say about Christianity/Catholicism is that it’s inconclusive because I don’t have enough information….