It is almost as if things get worse the more you pray about them. Especially things that have to do with health and sickness. My mom lost 3 cousins this year. For one of them I prayed like a dog, and he got worse and died. There was another woman who I prayed for that had complications after her surgey, she also got worse and died. I am honestly scared of praying now cause what if it makes it worse
You persevere. I know it is easier said than done. Your Prayers, if done in good faith, will not make things worse. That would be a form of superstition. But, you are not alone if feeling this way. I too have experienced this temptation.
Keep praying and trusting in God. One day everything will all make sense and we will see the big picture of God’s plan for our lives and for the lives of those we love and care about.
Hope this helps. Know you are in my Prayers as you Pray, Come Holy Spirit.
This YouTube video entitled “Why Bad Things Happen To Good People” may be of some value to you. It has been something I have been working on as I understand where you are coming from. The last two thirds of the video will be relevant. This is a preview video so the link won’t be good long as within a few weeks it will be updated and replaced as I get feedback from friends. But I think it might help you now so, here is its link on YouTube. https://youtu.be/vLm1389AfUU