The idea or concept that Jesus had to suffer terribly in order to pay the price for our sins is very disturbing to my heart.
I have no doubt that Jesus has the power and authority to forgive us for our sins, on behalf of our Eternal Father. But I do not feel that he has to endure punishment on our behalf in order to accomplish this.
My conviction is that we are not these temporarily manifested material bodies which are made of transformations of mud and water. Rather, we are eternal spirit souls, just as God is eternal, with no beginning and no end. When we depart from the body, at the time of âdeathâ, the material body no longer shows signs of life, and begins to decompose. But we are eternal spirit souls. We are not these material bodies.
One who understands, by direct perception, that I am not this material body, no longer identifies with the pains and pleasures of the flesh and blood. Therefore he becomes indifferent to material dualities, and becomes situated in the on-going pleasure of the spirit.
Yes, Jesus could endure crucifixionâŚâŚ.even up to the point of being more concerned about those who were crucifying him, and asking God to forgive them, at the same time as he was crucified. This degree of heartfelt compassion and love is because he is not afflicted as you or I would be afflicted if we were crucified.
Therefore my conviction is that to be told that Jesus had to suffer terrible agony because I am a sinner âŚâŚ.. this I cannot accept. I am a sinner. This I accept. And Jesus was crucified. This I accept. But that Jesus, who could perform all manner of miracles, such as walking on water, commanding the wind to stop blowing, healing the sick (even long-distance at times), feeding a great assembly of people with a few morsels of feed, seeing future events (like the crucifixion) with acceptanceâŚâŚâŚsuch a personality who comes to us, from another world, the spiritual worldâŚâŚâŚ.such a personality does not suffer the dualities of the flesh as we would.
My conviction is that Jesus can cleanse us of the reactions of our sins. But he does not have to suffer in order to do this. And, the way in which he cleanses our hearts, is by sharing his love of the Father with us. When we imbibe the taste of love of God through the process of intimate association with Jesus, within our hearts, all attraction to our sinful activities are automatically vanquished, without separate endeavor.
I also believe that going to confession, and then engaging in the same sins repeatedly, is like using Jesus as a door mat. Jesus may forgive us for behaving in this way. But our Heavenly Father, who loves His son, will not. These are my convictions.
Jesus does not want us to feel guilt and shame. Jesus tells us: âRejoice!â These are my convictions.