Probably, because you come off as angry most the time.
I was in Adoration last night until about 2 AM (do Trad believe in Adoration or is this a Vatican II thing) and I was reading a book that I’ve been reading for a few months now where the author is recalling the differences between the Catholic Church of his 1950’s upbringing and the changes of Vatican 2. I still can’t tell where he falls on either side (as if there are sides). I see good things about how the Church used to do many things and I see good things about how the Church does many things today.
In the chapter that I was reading last night, he compares the funeral rite liturgy of Vatican I to that of the Vatican II. The old borderline rejects the merits of Christ. It views things in a royal context (King/Servant), where as the new liturgical rite views things in more of a Father/Son context. I cannot relate to the former (which I guess makes me a modernist), but I can relate to a Father/Child relationship.
The author points out how the old Prayers were more balanced between having a lowly view of oneself, while a very high view of God. While there is an imbalance in the new Prayers between the two, on the side of God and less about self. The problem with the New Prayers is that it does seem to be a lower view of God and a higher view of self than the old, however, the old appears non-genuine, where as the new Prayers are more real.
While the old is too far in one direction (to where it isn’t even relatable and feels fake/forced). It is like how my Grandma (who is a saint) would confuse putting herself down for humility. We have value, because of Who God is. And humility is putting God and others before ourselves. The old Prayers however focus too much on self in my opinion. Saying that we are trash. But, we are not trash. God does not see us as trash.
The new goes too far in the opposite direction (to where it feels a bit fluffy and too relaxed). I have a cousin who is not Catholic and when he drinks too much, he goes around telling everyone how much he loves them. “I love you guys,” he slurs. That is kind of what the new liturgical rites feel like. If feels a little inauthentic. And thought there is truth in what he is saying, it feels like it isn’t really him (if that makes sense).
So how do we get to a place where we admit that we are not trash, but that we need the mercy of God, because we have not been humble (in the true sense of the word). We have put ourselves above God and above others, which is gravely sinful and disordered.
I have not finished the book, but I think the author is where I am at. There were both good and bad things about Vatican I and there are both bad and good things about Vatican II. And I understand the reasoning behind the old and the new (some valid and some less valid). I also know that a compromise between the two would make neither the Trads nor the Modernists happy. But, perhaps it isn’t about us and more about a high view of God and about a relationship with Jesus. We can do both and should do both.