May to July has been a busy month. First, my two-year ministry service at my original parish was forced to come to an end due to some personal reasons involving a nun, who suggested that I stop. I had no choice but to accept it. However, after two years of service, I had grown accustomed to it, and suddenly I didn’t know where to go or what to do. I felt like I had lost my sense of identity, belonging, and even purpose.
I am reading the book The Critical Journey and carefully examining the struggles of the fourth stage. I feel lonely, helpless, and even angry. Additionally, my family is facing issues; my father’s mental state has been unstable recently, so I need to pray for him more and provide appropriate care. My work has also become unstable, and my income is very low. It feels like I’ve entered a complete low point. Now, I pray more than ever before, spending more time in prayer.
I don’t know where to go from here, but I believe the Lord will guide me.
God hears your Prayers. Keep trusting in Him.
“I know indeed how to live in humble circumstances; I know also how to live with abundance. In every circumstance and in all things I have learned the secret of being well fed and of going hungry, of living in abundance and of being in need.” — Philippians 4:12
Lord, may your will be done, but let it be good : )
When we moved to Pennsylvania three years ago, I immediately looked for new volunteer work. Some places had contact forms on their websites, and the computers assured me that I would hear from them soon. Guess how many replied? The number starts with a Z. I visited two places in person; one had me fill out a form, and at the other I was told I could come any time to help out, but when I brought some requested hardware, the one person who was there didn’t know me and wouldn’t let me in, and my emails went unanswered. These stories could be longer, but I’m just saying I know how frustrating and discouraging it can be when nobody wants your help.
In the past I too have had financial troubles and family members with mental problems.
Life is hard sometimes!