That’s it…….we are all “earth students”. And you are in the most fortunate position……..simply because you are understanding how painful life is in the material world. Those who come into this world, to be born in a palace as a prince, or the son of a billionaire, or the body that is destined to an olympic athlete, or a movie star that is worshipped by thousands of people, or to be recognized as the most handsome or the most beautiful…….these people rarely become serious about spiritual life. Because they are intoxicated with their material success. And they are blind to the fact, that all of it can come to an end at any moment. The wealthiest man on the planet can’t take a penny with him when he has to leave this body behind. Also everyone here, in this world, will grow old, diseased and die.
This life is meant for spiritual cultivation. So that we don’t have to come back here and do it again. And the only ticket out of here is if we have love of God in our hearts. Being a “good” person is not enough. Jesus says “Not by good works alone…..”. No God wants our love, and this is the commandment of Jesus. I speak like this because we are having this discussion on Catholic Talk. Therefore I am expressing the truth of all religions in words that Catholics can relate to. Jesus says that of all the rules by which God wants us to live, the highest rule is to love God with all of our heart and all of our strength. Love is more than being a good person. Love is a personal feeling about the person we love. And this is what God wants from us. He wants us to love Him. Then He accepts us into His kingdom. This is the ticket, the entrance fee.
When God likes someone, He may give them what they want in this world. But if He really likes someone, He takes everything away from them…..so that they will turn to Him as their only shelter, as their only source of satisfaction, as their only happiness.
Worldly satisfaction is short-lived. All of the saints are spritual practitioners who have turned their backs on the so-called worldly pleasures. They are not ascetics. They have spiritual pleasure in their hearts , pleasure that causes them to consider the things of this world to be insignificant.
Therefore you have a head-start. I am in a similar boat. I have always been like a square peg in a round hole in this world. And it caused me to search for something that I could hold on to, something that could fulfill my heart. And that led me to religion. A person like you……you are like me…….we have no choice……because we can’t find it in the things of this world. Therefore this is God’s kindness, this is God’s love. We are very fortunate. Now let us make the best use of our good fortune, by openiong our hearts to God, and asking Him to be our Father, our Mother, our best Friend, our wealth, our everything. Then our lives can be the most successful. Instead of seeing this world as a horrible place, we can begin to see this world as an institution for our reclamation. And as we grow spiritually, we will only have loving compassion on the people of this world, because all of their hopes, all of their dreams, all of their endeavors for family, society, friendship and love will be taken from them by the relentless passing of time. And if they are not prepared, they will only die with empty hearts.
Thank you for being honest enough to express you pain. This takes courage. I respect you for that. Ask God how you can come closer to Him….. and as as you do…..you will begin to feel yourself to be the most fortunate, the most wealthy person in the world. You won’t want anything more. You won’t even want to leave this place. You will only pray, “Please God, I am not asking You for anything. You can keep me here in this world, or You can place me wherever You like. All I am asking You for is to be able to feel Your presence in my heart, and to feel Your love.” I believe in my heart that this is only thing to shoot for. I am working on this in my own small way. Let us give each other strength.