I think if most are honest, they would say that they have many regrets. I believe this is a sign of spiritual growth.
I do believe that some dreams and visions are gifts from God, but I also believe many (and probably most) are not. I have all kinds of creative thoughts that enter into my mind throughout the day and while I sleep. I am a very vivid dreamer, but many of these thoughts do not glorify God, but rather man or my own ego.
Thank you for sharing this part of your journey. It could help someone else who is experiencing similar thoughts and feelings. Our ways are not God’s ways (Isaiah 55:8).